I just sent this email to someone and I wanted to share it with you too. It's a reminder that we are not supposed to be handling this world on our own. If we try to do things on our own, we WILL fail.
Of course you suck at this. You cannot do the "budgeting," or the "being a grownup," or the "getting a job," or the "keeping/finding a girlfriend," or the "__________." You cannot do them on your own, that is.
You need to be depending on God. He is calling for you and He is there to help you. I know that you have been worried about money for a while now. Here's what I submit to you:
before you pay any bills with your paychecks, tithe 10%. It doesn't matter if you owe 80 million people. Give back to God first.
find a way you can serve others right now. either tutoring at school, or volunteering at church to teach sunday school to little kids, or working in the food kitchen, serve others. Today. This will help you to get out of your cloud, to see others' hurts, and to get out of the house. And it will honor God at the same time.
c) do the best you can while honoring God.
If the best you can do is working 27 hours a week, do it. If you can get another job, do it. If the best writing you can do is a blog, do it. Just get writing, get working, and put your faith in Him. It will all work out.
The mechanics of staying on a budget and saving money are relatively easy compared to this other stuff. This God is not easy. He expects much from us and He does not tolerate lukewarm people.
I'll call you later today. Love you.